and now I feel really bad. (no, not about the post below. about the most recent of events).

I can honestly relate to your pain and sense of lonliness. This being because of your foul and unexpected move a while back, that one really affected me. Just then though, it honestly was not at all like that. I had an opportunity and so I took it - exactly as you would have done. I then ran over to you to allow you your chance, but you didn't see this. You seem upset. I understand that you probably felt totally ignored and inadequate, but I really tried. I really did. And before you missed this move of mine, I'd felt really good about it, whereas normally I am hesitant. This isn't a snap at you whatsoever, it's more of an apology. Not even that, it's more for my peace of mind. I felt I owed it to you to explain the situation, although I've yet to recieve yours.. And I am slightly annoyed of what I just saw - the discussion of some of us (I assumed with your sudden stop at mid-speech) - but it's nothing we all haven't done to you. Many a time, actually. So, sorry. I'll explain this to you in person. Although it'll sound much more cheery because honestly, it is.