Interesting.


It's truly fascinating how you can interpret one's actions and can predict their next when you 'read between the lines', a skill I learnt in my history lessons.

       You can learn so much about different people, who in fact seem to all be the same. The licking of asses will continue no doubt for beyond just the foreseeable future and it only angers me inside. Of course I smile or just look away, with a brief roll of the eyes.

       Although I may not stand out in such a way, some really do not and the lack of individuality bores me greatly. It seems there is no diversity in groups and so I find myself searching around, rather than being content within my own 'group'. That people are quick to stereo-type annoys me. Although I'd be lying if I said I didn't. Similarly with just general judgement. I am quick to judge people, although I'm not greatly stubborn as such so it's not so difficult to change my perception. I'd just rather not be judged myself. So I guess it's fair to ask me not to judge you, right? I don't know. I often keep things in my mind anyway, only sometimes do I speak up. Say what everyone's thinking - break the silence and create a slightly akward situation for the victim. Hm.

       Yes, I would rather there be fewer similarities between people but it seems people just find a 'trend' & follow, or copy their friend. Whatever. You know? Like I'd hate to think that people see me as similar to my friends, not that I dislike their ways or anything. Of course not, or we wouldn't be friends. But just that so little variety within a group bores me. As I've already said.

So it's this cycle of thoughts continually goes round my head each day I am at school. Pretty annoying, huh?

       In some ways that's why I've started to like art. wow. I said it. Since a trip to a gallery I realised that thoughts could be portrayed through pretty much any form of art. It's imagination, rather than precision, I think. You need to express yourself in a way that screams your name, but sings your thoughts. It's important to keep it your own. I wouldn't allow anyone to change or adjust the idea slightly. Except my mum. She occasionally has some okay input. I guess. So I'm pretty happy to be starting this summer exams preparatory work this coming week actually. That's fun. More so than the coursework we are asked to do in lessons and then for homework. Ha. Fail. I only really enjoy the leading up to a final piece. So for the exam this is ideal. It's a shame, though, that the lack of coursework submitted will bring me down massively. It's disappointing that I hadn't such thoughts of inspiration when the GCSE was introduced and we first began, way back in year 10. Damnit, Samy.